I've been meditating a lot on Phillipians 2 lately, doing some memory, and basically trying to wrap my mind around the concept of making myself of no reputation, being consumed with the things of others rather than myself, and what lowliness of mind looks like lived out in flesh and blood. It's been a challenge for sure!
The other evening, I found myself in a very rare situation. Home alone at night, with no one but my kitty to keep me company. The dark, quiet house was such a strange contrast to the normal hustle and bustle of nine family members, so as I tackled a pile of dishes, I stuck in a CD that belonged to one of my brothers. I had never listened to it before, and many of the songs were completely unfamiliar to me. One jumped out in particular, though, and as I listened to it over and over again, the impact of what this men's quartet was singing about struck a chord with my recent ponderings.
Lord as I seek to serve You,
May You find in me what's pleasing to Your heart.
I leave my will at Calvary,
Taking on a nature humbled by Your scars.
For I know it's only through Your love,
That who I am is hidden by Your grace.
Let my desires be overshadowed,
As I recall the purpose of that place.
That sweet place of the cross. The cross that seeks to hide us - not only our sins, failings, and stumblings as fallen human creatures, but those fleshly human achievements that would seek to blur the glory and splendor of Jesus Christ in us. I found the prayer that rose from this truth so precious...
Hide me behind the cross,
Where my gains become as loss.
And only Your glory is in view.
Your power will be revealed
The more that I am concealed.
Hide me behind the cross
So the world sees only You.
I have to think of what our number one goal needs to be in life. That goal which Paul so aptly puts into words in Phillipians 3:10 ~ "That I may know Him...." That all else in my life becomes as loss and worth nothing in the light of this higher priority.
What is the fruit of this heart?
If I rely on my strength
To be a source of hope for those in need,
The only profit I would gain
Would be the empty honor of my deeds.
But with all of self behind Your cross,
The splendor of Your love stands free to shine.
Illuminating with Your power,
Reaching souls so You alone are glorified.
Truly and honestly, is there anything is life worth living for more than this? My desire is to keep this focus always in the forefront of my vision. Hiding behind the cross of glory, so that His glory is revealed, the more I allow my self to be hidden behind Him...