Thursday, March 26, 2009

A Bride's Love

From Jesus' words, "Whosoever loves Me..." and "Do you love Me?" we sense how much He yearns for us to love Him. But it is a special kind of love He seeks. It is the love that is reflected in the relationship between an earthly bride and her bridegroom.

An exclusive love.

A love that tolerates no rivals.

A love that gives the beloved, the bridegroom, the first place.

As the heavenly Bridegroom, Jesus lays claim to such first love. Because He loves us so dearly, He longs to have the whole of us. Jesus gave Himself unreservedly for us. Now He yearns for us to give ourselves completely to Him, with all that we are and have, so that He can truly be our first love. 

-Basilea Schlink, My All for Him

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

The Greatest Act of Faith

"One of the greatest acts of faith is to look in the mirror of God's word, see yourself for who you really are, and believe with your whole heart that God loves you deeply, intimately, and unconditionally. "
-Paul Washer

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Joy unspeakable!

This month has been one of the happiest of my life. There have been times that I've been skeptical if my heart can contain any more joy. I sometimes wonder if a heart has a bursting level, and I feel quite honestly that mine is sometimes at a dangerous level of pressure. 

You may wonder why. The answer is quite simple. I've become reacquainted with the Love of my life in a brand new way, and have fallen head over heels. He's more than I ever dreamed possible. He has filled me with a joy deeper than I could have imagined. A renewed purpose for living. A new direction in life. A new spring in my step. A brand new avenue to throw my energies into. 

You see, I have dreamed for a long time of being loved unconditionally. Of pouring my heart and life into one person. Of living for the joy and delight of the man who succeeded in winning my heart. As the years have gone by, some of these desires have been met with the nagging question, "Is it really even possible? Am I building castles in the sky that are only going to be met with disappointment?"

Today I can testify with an overflowing heart that He has not disappointed me. God has not disappointed me. He has mercifully not yet granted me the blessing of earthly love, while at the same time, showing me the far greater and infinitely more satisfying love He has to offer. So often I have acted like His love was not enough. That His tender care could not satisfy me fully. In my head I knew He wanted me to make Him my all, but could I really trust Him to give me what my heart craved?

Despite my failure to trust my Lord completely, His relentless pursuit of me puts the best of romance novels in the garbage heap. His perfect gifts outshine anything I could imagine up or go create myself. His daily presence surpasses the closest friendship I have known, for He has promised to never, ever leave my side. He satisfies my deep yearning to love and be loved. That satisfaction is deeper than the best of human relationships could ever hope to accomplish. 

Did I mention that I was happy? Giddy with near girlish excitement would be a better way to put it. To know beyond a shadow of a doubt that no human love can ever, ever surpass this priceless treasure He has bestowed on me is almost more than I  can take in. This kind of love is what brings forth my deep-seated passion to give Him my all and serve Him. Always. Forever.  

My Savior's love has won my heart, and I am satisfied. Happier than I ever thought was possible this side of heaven. 

"Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with loving-kindness have I drawn thee." Jeremiah 31:3

Monday, March 09, 2009

Compelled to Serve

I stand upon the brink of time, and gaze out far ahead - 
Pondering the future, and all that God has said

In my hand lies comfort, ease, and rest, all I could desire,
Yet greater mountains beckon on, God's heartbeat calls me higher. 

Your love has made me willing, Your call compels me go
To a vast and hurting people, Your glory I must show.

The cost I've surely counted, and it pales beside the prize,
of souls set free, of man redeemed, of my God glorified.

As I surrender to His will, I find my joy complete
in a life poured out for others, in a heart laid at His feet. 

In the footsteps of my Lord and King, I now choose to walk.
May my life be a beacon bright, to point to Christ, the solid rock.

The fields are white to harvest. The sheaves of grain I see.
Thus with longing heart, my cry goes forth,
"Here am I, Lord send me!"

Your love had made me willing, Your call compels me go
to a vast and hurting people, Your glory I must show

The cost I've surely counted, and it pales beside the prize
Of souls set free, of man redeemed, of my God glorified.

-A.J.H 2009
Written in El Cuervo, MX during three 
days spent among the Taramuhara 
Indians, a largely unreached people group.